U-turn Here!

Wow! Okay another turn in this road. How come God doesn't give you a map? It's like those dag on GPS systems, you never know how you're going to get there, you just keep on following it's direction and hopefully you get to your destination. Well as most of you know by know, I have returned back from my side trip to finding myself again. Unfortunately we lost the baby after 8 weeks, of course, reasons unknown. we are all doing fine as expected. Very disappointed, but I guess because it was still so early and I didn't know I was almost 12 weeks along, instead of 7, I didn't get so attached to the idea. We will be trying again when the doctor gives the clear, but until then, I will be back on my original journey, so join me again. Whew!

My first week of work has been interesting and enjoyable. The biggest or strangest part about the job is working for a company that prays before each meeting. I mean I understood it was a Christian based organization, but I suppose with all my years of separation of church and state, it's just surreal. Everyone is really nice and professional. Education is high on their list and so is moving up in the system. They want you to start applying for school (which they pay for) and other positions, as soon as you're able. Now, the dress code is a little starch... no capris. Well at least you won't have that issue of seeing your co worker's thong. Unfortunately it also leads to that nasty habit of always being examined and maybe being told on. Terrible for office morale. Luckily my office is at home! Jake seems to be adjusting to my few days out of the home so far and I'm doing well also with it.

Since the miscarriage I have seen a significant change in my body again. I can't believe I didn't know I was pregnant sooner. Well I did, but I guess complications during the first month made it confusing. Well I appreciate your thoughts and prayers for our family and again, thank you for joining me in my journey.

A turn in the road

So, as some of you know by now, this stubborn weight gain that resorted to me putting on Jim's pants had something to do with what I was eating, but has more to do with the fact that we are pregnant! So this journey of weight loss and a return to all things Yvonne must take a detour back to prenatal vitamins, no alcohol, more walking than running and all the joys that go with growing a baby. We are excited and looking forward to a girl or a boy. I see the benefits of both and just hope for a healthy child. I guess this body is pretty spetacular since I'm nearing 40 and can still produce children spontanenously. So far, I have the sinking feeling this is a girl. I have had nausea that I never experienced with Jake and I've craved very early in the pregnancy. I remember one week I craved the yolk of eggs and had at least one egg a day for that week. I'm not as tired as I was with Jake, but I know, every time is different, but it's more than just the symptoms, I have a feeling... I think this journey is going to be bumpier than losing weight!

Is this the same body?

Yesterday Rhonda and I kept to our commitment to incorporate exercise back into our lives and went for a run in Battery Park, Old New Castle. The weather was great, the view was awesome. It was time spent on me! I hadn't been back that far into Battery Park since Jim and I went roller blading almost seven years ago. Afterwards I felt really good. I wasn't where I used to be, but I'm certainly not as bad as I thought I was. Running really allows you to let go mentally and enjoy the pavement under your feet, the sites or goals in front of your eyes. We saw a beautiful hare munching on the grass. I had to call it a hare, it's so close to Hare's corner! Then later that evening, I went to my favorite store, Marshall's to find a suit... in order not to deal with the frustration of squeezing into the size I hope I still am, I went for a size up. Wow! still struggling. Is this the same body that was running this morning? I look in the mirror and see excess I've never seen before. Yes, this is that same body. The same legs that carried me more than a mile one way. These are the same the abs that supported me as I turned and maneuvered through the path. This body may not look like it used to look, but it's still strong and supportive as ever! It doesn't look so bad under the suit either.