Still on my journey

So, I'm obsessed again, trying to stay focused and reach my goals. I'm losing weight again since falling off the bandwagon 4th of July weekend and then getting distracted at work and then needing to catch up on my notes. So I had trouble working out everyday, but one thing I found I was able to do and get a good work out, bike ride with Jake and Jim at the Fox Point State Park. It's over two miles and a little more because Jake is still learning and I'm always backtracking. So far we've gone out twice and I've been doing weight and ab training, eating low carb and high protein. It also helps because Jim is also doing low carbs, so making meals is easier; I just cook Jake some starch and divide it up in four or five portions to defrost another night. It's been working great, I'm able to stick to low carbs and I'm not wasting much. My focus is I'd like to be down to my wedding weight by my anniversary, that's 4 more pounds in five days. Thinking that way made me get on the elliptical this morning, especially after attempting to try on my wedding gown last night. I also want to be down to a weight when I see the plastic surgeon about my axiliary tissue. I don't want there to be any questions about some of the tissue being fat. And now I'm thinking that when I go away for my anniversary this weekend, I won't take a vacation "break" with food or exercise. I won't torture myself, but it won't be a free for all. I know I must seem crazy, but thinking this out really helps me to stay focused. Besides, my lower half has gotten to a great size, but my top half is where I'm holding on to the weight! I don't know what "fruit" shape that is, but I liken it more to a freezey pop with the two sticks. Anyway, I've done all of this the two weeks before my period! That's an accomplishment all in itself.