It's been hard

With the humidity, fatigue and allergy attack on my systems, I had a hard time working out for the last week or two. It seemed I never had enough sleep and I finally went to the pharmacist to find something OTC for the fuzziness I felt in my head but wouldn't raise my blood pressure. He told me there was nothing over the counter, but I could use a steroid based nasal spray. I held back the tears. I knew if I didn't take care of it soon, it would turn into an infection. But then I thought, Oh! like I used many years ago? before I moved to a carpet free home and now that I live in the freaking woods! The same prescription that Jim was given and is sitting on the window sill? Well anyway, I just have to push through. I feel better, but the medicine wears off by the end of the day, so by morning, I'm not exhausted, but I'm still not motivated. And there are so many other things, as always. We're working on the garden at W. 10th St., should finish up tonight. I have notes, that I've had no motivation to catch up on and it's the 25th! and then it's close to my period, so I had no will power to say no to the Oreo ice cream cake Hoodie had at her party! Uggh, but!!!! Jim has been following the high protein, no carbs, except greens diet for about two weeks, so it's easier. This weekend I made meatballs, then added Italian sausage yesterday. Tonight I was ready to grill chicken breast, but mom said she had pork roast left for our dinner tonight! tuna, Carnation breakfast drinks and a little fruit is what my diet is consisting of. I added a 4o min bike ride through Bellevue this morning and staying active with the pool, yard work, and my usual running up and down, cleaning, "project-ing" self. My goal is to stay on target and focused until our anniversary, August 21st. I hope to kick this 10-20 pounds that keeps holding on. I feel focused now and hopefully will get back to where I was three weeks ago. Also, great news, I have an intern meeting with my possible supervisor at Crozer!!!!! Yipppppeeee! I keep praying that things will work out the way they're supposed to, with lots of experience and great supervision! So even though it's been hard, and trust me, this is only dealing with my weight loss goal, it's been worth it. My blood pressure is still normal with medication and I'm not giving up! The 10 pounds will have to break at some point, we can't go on like this forever.