One other thing I noticed.

I'm not having any breast tenderness before my cycle. That's something I always get right after I ovulate. All I got was swollen feet. Thursday can't come fast enough. Although this could be the beginning of the physical symptoms of menopause. I should read up on that too. And my dreams have been the typical, detailed, vivid and very sensual nightmare! One dream I had was about the water being contaminated in the city of Wilmington where we still lived.  When you drank too much of it, you got symptoms that made you (I can't think of the word...something that means animal-like, work on your basic drives). I've got to stop thinking about it and just let it go. If I am, I am and thinking about it, writing about it, focusing on it is setting me up for disappointment. It doesn't help that people still ask me if "Jim and I are done?". I just respond that the area is shut down, that I'm too old; my eggs are too old. I mean that what doctors, specialist and Jim believes. Besides, you have to copulate for there to even be a chance.